I need like REALLY NEED to organise my time and to get motivated. I am not motivated to go to class, or do homework nor study. I should be but I'm not. I should had taken that year without class but I didn't and I seriously dislike college. I spend my days counting down the days till the weekend only to be frustrated with the fact that i have so much to do. Most of the time i don't do it. I need motivation or this semester will go worse than the first but I seriously do not like college. Maybe if I had friends or people to study with I would be motivated but I don't. I dread the though of going to class even if I still do. I'm always distracted and procrastinating. Everyone tells me I should have the time of my life but I'm not having it. I'm counting down the days until summer. Hoping that next semester since i'll be starting (hopefully) with concentration clases I'll be more motivated. I feel so young in college. I try to be friendly with people but I feel constantly judge and people never really want to talk to me. I'm an outcast and even though i'm kind of used to it that is not an excuse for me to be so demotivated. Honestly i'm demotivated with life in general nothing really makes me happy or excited. I'm only 18 and i'm already bored out of my mind of life. I don't have motivation!! not for college, not for going out, not for my hobbies, not for anything. Heck most people are like from party to party and not even that motivaste me. I used to be full of light, dreams, passion and motivation; now it's all gone. Nothing motivates me, nothing is entertaining. Life is just a dull straight line that keeps going and going. Almost like the line in a monitor that announces the heart stopped beating. I need a little bit more of life and adventure but am I going to find that with 2 of my best friends in USA. I rarely speak with any of my friends and life consisting of the same old bored routine and is not even a good one.